Here I Am.

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On the last Sunday in June, 2008, I walked up to a lovely little chapel , neatly nestled between two private homes in the unabashedly residential DC neighborhood of the Palisades.

RevRobBanaszak_InstagramI had a feeling I was going to find what I was looking for — a spiritual home that I felt as connected to as I was to the Science of Mind church I had joined during my brief time in Albuquerque, New Mexico. Which, incidentally, was a lovely little chapel nestled among private homes in a residential neighborhood.

So when Rev. Steve Eveland, who was the M.C. that day said those magical words “Welcome Home,” I knew I was indeed home.

Ten years later, I’m still here! And what an adventure it has been. And I humbly ask you to indulge me some reflections on my ISD adventure, as they have been pivotal in the deepening of my love of our spiritual home, and the unfolding of my devotion to ensuring its legacy through a rich, joy-filled experience of spiritual community.

My ‘origin” story here is pretty epic and synchronous, and I hope you allow me to share it with you sometime. And, while I am humbled, honored and proud that I am “still here,” I do not claim to have been — or to be —  a perfect congregant, member, minister or Pastor. I have had my share of “growing pains” as I settled into what various roles I thought I might play here.

I served as a volunteer in many capacities, but with giant parameters around doing so. I answered the lifelong call to become a minister, but hadn’t really grasped what that meant here, at ISD, serving our members, and helping to usher in a space and place of peace.  I had several “church pals,” in my earliest days here,  but often left them in the dust as soon as any church event was over, to get back to my “friends.”

But I kept to my commitment to myself to change things up and do things differently than I had done in the past. Which meant choosing new behaviors like turning down the “forcefield” around me a bit — maybe even letting some people through! Or rather than wait to help someone until they give me a reason I am comfortable with, I’d help just because they earnestly asked “would you do this for me?”  Or being vigilant about my my moaning and groaning about stupid stuff, and trusting that the Universe had in fact, guided me to the perfect place for me right now.

And you know what? With or without my protective “layers” and in spite of my best efforts to keep my life compartmentalized and in boxes, I became more and more aligned with ISD and the people who bring her to life. I became a brightly colored thread among many other brightly colored threads that make up the vibrant tapestry of ISD. I became ONE with this community. Our history. Our triumphs and our trials.

I can honestly say that in the last 10 years, that I have been an integral part of some of ISD-DC’s highest vibrational moments! And yes, I have certainly been a part of some of our lowest ones as well. If you are truly involved and engaged in any thing worth your energy, that is likely to be the case. We can get hurt, and we can hurt too.

And wouldn’t you know it…with all of the“stuff” over the last 10 years, the good, and the not-so-goodm I have fallen IN LOVE! With our Sanctuary, where the veil between the dimensions is so beautifully fluid, and where Magic is the flow between them. With our Ancestry, who continue to be the deep and solid roots from which our diverse branches reach high to our limitless future. With our People — longtimers and newbies, who entrust us with their individual journeys and support us with their incredible generosity.

Yes. It has been quite the adventure to get “here.” And “here” today is not the “here” of yesterday and will most definitely not be “here” tomorrow.

What about you, my ISDelights?  Are you here? If not, what can we do to bring you here? What will you do to get you “here?” Who can you be, and what will you become when you are “here,” to help you be the very best person you can be when you are out “there”?

We’ve got a lovely summer and a busy fall coming up!  So if you have been teetering or wavering what your role is; or hem-hawing about how much you want to do or give, or when should you be making that decision about volunteering or  becoming a minister: here is that SIGN that you’ve been asking for:

“GET, HERE. NOW.”

Oh and here is the follow up sign that you also asked  for to determine if the first on was real:

“DO IT!!!” 

I’ll be here when you get here…

…oh wait..here you are!

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